I look back on pictures of myself over the years of my marriage…
I am so sad for her.
She was so lost.
wasn’t even present.
Sometimes I don’t think I did anything for myself during that period of time.
existed in automatic.
I didn’t know what I wanted...
I was so entangled with my responsibilities and those of the people around me..
so unclear on my boundary issues…
I created and lived in a mess of others people stuff.
I was sick and lost.
I am so grateful I was able to finally get a hold of who I am.
definitely not repeating that pattern again.